I don't even know why I decided to update....who knows....well anyway, let's see what's been going on...

Halloween '03 was AMAZING....so much fun.....Erin and I were pregnant nuns, Becky was a gangster, Michelle was Punky Brewster, and Kristen was a bloody Army girl...I had to work and I was supposed to work till 9, except they let me out around 6.....so we went to the girls apartment and got ready, our costumes were so damn funny I kept laughing...I had a long black robe and a long black thing that goes on your head, and a big cheesy gold cross that was resting on a stuffed pillow under my teeshirt...The pictures are rediculous from that night....we went to the Bullet and signed up for the costume contest as soon as we walked in...And somehow, we won...We won a $25 gift certificate for liquor or food from the bar.....so of course, we took it and ran...as if we weren't drunk enough already....I started the night with tequila shots, so I'm just happy I didn't pass out, haha :) But I did fall on my ass....twice..that hurt like a mofo the next day...I had the worst hangover...

Other than that, it's just been weeks full of work and weekends full of partying to make up for it...I've been getting a lot of hours waitressing, except it's been slow, which means I come home with like no money :(  Oh well...maybe it will pick up because of the holidays...we'll see..

School has been redonkulous...paper after paper and bullshit assignments..I love being an English major, so I cant' really complain cause I don't get crazy hard tests...I just get papers up the ass..And my schedule for next semester is gonna be hard core....So much work....but I gotta get it done..Now if we could only agree on a place to live next year, I'd feel better....It's hard because there are 4 different opinions which means that no one ever agrees..

Brian finally realized what he lost.....I got a call a few weeks ago from him and he basically broke down...I had been hearing from his friends that he hadn't been really happy in the past few months and his sister came out and told me that his family was on his case, telling him what a fuck up he was...And they're right...He did fuck up and it's too little, too late....I wasted too much of my time being miserable when he didn't give a fuck....He was like "I'm so sorry that I ever made you feel the way that I feel now, I'm miserable without you, you're the love of my life, I feel like I've lost my best friend, I wanna work things out, I'll wait forever if I have to, etc etc"  I'm sorry....but HELLO....I broke up with him in JULY.....and it took him till NOVEMBER to figure it out? I moved on with my life, and he's not a part of it anymore and I don't want to change that....It sounds mean, but I don't care how he feels anymore....It's my life, and I'm happy being single and mackin it....Not waiting around for a boyfriend who I wasn't a priority in his life...